Everyone keeps asking me what happened? Severe Trauma. Where have I been? At rest recovering. Am I still in business? Absolutely. When is the clinic coming back? NEVER! So let me explain and bring some clarity.
In the beginning of May there was a fatal incident near the clinic. I was standing outside less than 25 feet away and I REALLY thought I was going to die that day. PTSD doesn’t begin to cover what I have gone through for last few weeks. The incident made me very introspective, as I have thought on my own mortality and what I want out of life ever since.
As many of you know my son, puppy, and many other other children were often at the clinic and playing outside. Not to mention the many folks who visited the clinic. I simply could not ever go back. Being in the area of the clinic still sends my body into shock. While I’m much much better, I can still see the signs of shock and trauma in my person. For the first time in my life I have the ability to stop and take the time to heal.
For the last few weeks I have had to revisit what it is I want from my little micro-business, from life in general, what do I want my life to look like? How can I best serve myself, my family, and my community? The truth is while the clinic was open I; was a single mom, homeschooled my kid, ran the clinic, ran my mobile business, ran workshops and seminars, did practice monitoring, and worked with multiple detox centers in Sacramento providing NADA Acupuncture to their clients….in other words I was very busy all the time. It was too much.
I was burning out. I love community acupuncture clinics (CAC). It is the best idea ever and I think folks should totally support their local CACs. I really wanted to have one in Oak Park. And once I finaly had one, I realized the truth is I hated running it. AND I personally suck at minimalist treatments.
At a CAC it’s just needles aka acupuncture. However, Oriental medicine isn’t just needles. It’s also cupping, and e-stem, and moxa, and PT, and herbs, and diet, and lifestyle coaching, and body manipulation, and….And I found that I could not refrain from doing those things in the clinic because I knew they would help. So it made my burn out worse. Also, clients had began to expect all these extra services in the clinic instead of scheduling a full mobile appointment. This made the clinic a huge energetic and financial drain. After the incident it was just time to stop the clinic entirely.
Back to today. Yes, I’m still in business. I do even more work at drug treatment centers in the Sacramento area. It helps me to feel like I’m giving back to the community. I especially like that I’m following in the footsteps of the Young Lords, Black Panthers, and Mutulu Shakur. I’m still pretty busy but I have waaaaaay more free time for myself, my son, and my puppy.
Am I done healing? No. I still deal with my shiny new case PTSD, my dingy old PTSD, and all of the stuff that goes with it. Am I happier? Omg YES! I feel soooooooo much better. So what’s up with my business? I’ve narrowed my focus back to how I started. I am Everyone’s Place; Northern California’s only mobile acupuncture service. So where will the new clinic be? That’s not going to happen. I don’t want a clinic and I will not be doing pop up clinics at shows or fairs.
BUT what I do hope to do is bring the class Slow Down Sunday up to a weekly event in Sacramento. Aaaaaand one day to operate a mobile acupuncture bus. Aaaaaaand I also have started to create beautiful all semi precious stones waist beads. Aaaaaand I want to teach tai qi. Aaaaaaand there really needs to be a wholistic hospital (that other people will be paid to run! I caaaaaaaaan’t 😂)…… I’m constantly weaving the future golden.